Chasing the Impossible

It's been a long time since I last visited this blog.
And a lot of things has happened since then...
Sad things...
Happy things...
But I learned a lot from these things...
Some things I want to forget...
But can't seem to...
How do you forget?
Sometimes...
I wish I can get my brain operated...
And tell the surgeon to remove a part of my memory...
Memories that I want to forget...
Memories that still keeps popping...
Memories that still hurts...
Why are some people so insensitive?
So cold hearted?
I am tired of fighting for something that is not really worth fighting for...
I wanted to believe that it is worth it...
That it can happen...
That it is possible...
But...
I guess I was just disillusioned...
I guess I lead myself to believe...
That another person can also believe in the impossible...
That another person can have the faith that I do...
But through it all...
I woke up...
I woke up to the reality that I should not settle for second best...
The impossible can happen...
I just have to continue believing it...

Please say CUT!!!

Bad news
Upon hearing this kind of news
You kinda get stuck
What should you feel?
What should you do?
Are you allowed to be happy?
Though there are times
That upon hearing such news
Emotions just pour right out
Hearing that somebody in your family is in the hospital
Can make you feel...
I don't know...
Lost...
You don't know who to call...
You don't know what to do...
You don't know how to comfort your family...
Everybody just suddenly...
Detach themselves...
Everyone has a different way of dealing with grief...
But everyone is hopeful...
That at the end of the day...
Everything is back to normal...
That no one is in the hospital...
That everyone can freely laugh...
Without a cloud of grief above all of you...
That makes you feel...
That everything...
Everything...
Is just make believe...

Survival?

It's hot...
It's very very hot...
The temperature is making you think...
Of things you should not think about...
Do you think this increase in temperature...
Is causing some people to lose their minds...
And commit suicide or murder?
The news have been showing lately...
Increase in child abuse occurrence...
Some even say that there is also an increase in juvenile suicide...
Do you think its the weather...
The food shortage?...
Is this a case of survival of the fittest?
Or are we just more aware now...
Or is it the media?
Featuring more of this kind of news now than before...
Hmmm...
Who knows?...
Who can we trust in this day and age?...

Blessing

Something GREAT happened to me today...
A miracle...
yes...
A real miracle...
Just when I was about to give up...
Just when I was questioning my life...
Something happened...
That gave me hope again...
That I really have achieved my dreams...
It was truly an amazing thing...
That I was not able to stop myself...
I had to cry...
I have never done such a thing before...
Crying because of too much happiness...
But this time...
I knew deep inside...
That my prayers...
Have been heard...
As one song says...
Miracles happen...
Once in a while...
When you believe...

I love and respect ME

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Blogging...
I like to write...
Thus I like blogging...
So when an opportunity opened up to earn...
Through blogging...
I grabbed it...
Now...
I am not sure I like it anymore...
Because earning through blogging...
It seems you are now restricted to things that would promote your blog...
And not really write about things that you want to write about...
I just want to write what I feel...
Without anybody trying to judge if what i wrote...
Is interesting or not...

Benefits

Very recently...
I have discovered...
That there are still a lot of things I do not know...
Like the importance of a fungi to a tree...
Whoa...
I thought fungi are just that...
Fungi...
They can be food...
Well...
I admit I know they have an ecological role...
Heck...
A lot of things do...
And most of them...
Are just being ignored...
Thinking...
They are useless...
But...
look at a fungi...
They're small...
Looking insignificant...
In the vastness of a forest...
But look closer...
Look down below the ground...
You'll see that these insignificant fungi...
Are the reason why these huge trees survive...
The harshness of their habitats...
Especially with the number of denuded habitats...
Trees need all the help...
To survive...

I miss you...

Hugs...
I'll give one when we meet...
Won't be able to help myself...
It's one of the sweetest action that we can give to another...
The other is a kiss...
Just sad though...
That people are have demoted a kiss...
Into something meaningless...
Like you can do it...
Whenever...
And with whomever...
Really...
It's almost as if...
People nowadays...
Have becoming more and more...
Animal like...