Edward

I think I am going crazy.
Is it even possible to fall in love with a character in a book?
To think that that person is real, even though he is not?
To get excited everyday reading about him again and again.
To can't stop thinking about him...
To hope that he is real...
Am I really this desperate?
Am I really this lonely?
Or am I just finding ways to run away from the pain that somebody left behind?
But thinking about him and not the stupid jerk who broke my heart...
Made me want to live again...
Keeps me happy...
Gives me hope...
Thinking of him makes everything okay...
Is it so wrong to hold on to this fantasy?
That a character in a book can really come to life?

Earth Evolution

Everyday, I am getting more afraid.
You can now see it everywhere.
The Earth is changing.
The past few months several earthquakes happened here.
And now, with just a day of rain,
A number of places have suffered from severe flooding.
Several have died and thousands have lost their homes.
People cannot deny it anymore.
The climate has changed.
What's next?
Earthquake means movement of plates.
And the sea level is said to be rising.
Slowly, and destructively to humans,
The earth is changing.
The environment and maybe without us noticing it...
Even the landscape...
How long before the topography of the Earth starts changing too?
I am afraid not of the Earth changing.
I can't wait to see the New Earth.
I am afraid knowing that at some point,
A lot of people will be killed in the process.
Can I survive?
But what I am afraid more is that...
Will I find him?
Will we see each other before a lot of us will die?
Is he still even alive?
You see...
I believe in soul mate...
And everyday I get desperate in finding him...
I have to see him before...
Things get too late...
But how do I find him?
I'm scared...

Chasing the Impossible

It's been a long time since I last visited this blog.
And a lot of things has happened since then...
Sad things...
Happy things...
But I learned a lot from these things...
Some things I want to forget...
But can't seem to...
How do you forget?
Sometimes...
I wish I can get my brain operated...
And tell the surgeon to remove a part of my memory...
Memories that I want to forget...
Memories that still keeps popping...
Memories that still hurts...
Why are some people so insensitive?
So cold hearted?
I am tired of fighting for something that is not really worth fighting for...
I wanted to believe that it is worth it...
That it can happen...
That it is possible...
But...
I guess I was just disillusioned...
I guess I lead myself to believe...
That another person can also believe in the impossible...
That another person can have the faith that I do...
But through it all...
I woke up...
I woke up to the reality that I should not settle for second best...
The impossible can happen...
I just have to continue believing it...

Please say CUT!!!

Bad news
Upon hearing this kind of news
You kinda get stuck
What should you feel?
What should you do?
Are you allowed to be happy?
Though there are times
That upon hearing such news
Emotions just pour right out
Hearing that somebody in your family is in the hospital
Can make you feel...
I don't know...
Lost...
You don't know who to call...
You don't know what to do...
You don't know how to comfort your family...
Everybody just suddenly...
Detach themselves...
Everyone has a different way of dealing with grief...
But everyone is hopeful...
That at the end of the day...
Everything is back to normal...
That no one is in the hospital...
That everyone can freely laugh...
Without a cloud of grief above all of you...
That makes you feel...
That everything...
Everything...
Is just make believe...

Survival?

It's hot...
It's very very hot...
The temperature is making you think...
Of things you should not think about...
Do you think this increase in temperature...
Is causing some people to lose their minds...
And commit suicide or murder?
The news have been showing lately...
Increase in child abuse occurrence...
Some even say that there is also an increase in juvenile suicide...
Do you think its the weather...
The food shortage?...
Is this a case of survival of the fittest?
Or are we just more aware now...
Or is it the media?
Featuring more of this kind of news now than before...
Hmmm...
Who knows?...
Who can we trust in this day and age?...

Blessing

Something GREAT happened to me today...
A miracle...
yes...
A real miracle...
Just when I was about to give up...
Just when I was questioning my life...
Something happened...
That gave me hope again...
That I really have achieved my dreams...
It was truly an amazing thing...
That I was not able to stop myself...
I had to cry...
I have never done such a thing before...
Crying because of too much happiness...
But this time...
I knew deep inside...
That my prayers...
Have been heard...
As one song says...
Miracles happen...
Once in a while...
When you believe...

I love and respect ME

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Blogging...
I like to write...
Thus I like blogging...
So when an opportunity opened up to earn...
Through blogging...
I grabbed it...
Now...
I am not sure I like it anymore...
Because earning through blogging...
It seems you are now restricted to things that would promote your blog...
And not really write about things that you want to write about...
I just want to write what I feel...
Without anybody trying to judge if what i wrote...
Is interesting or not...